Saturday, October 11, 2008

I Am Procrastinating

I have no clue what is wrong with me lately. I hate, hate, hate, waiting until the ninth hour to get things done, yet it seems to be my norm lately. Case worker is coming? Quick! Clean the house. I am leading the Missions Sunday in Junior Church tomorrow? Uh-Oh, better go and get my things together! We need to leave in a hour and have dinner first? Ugh! Have a sandwich!

It has been like that lately and I do not know why. I have been asked to speak this year at our church's annual Ladies Christmas Banquet. You could have knocked me over with a feather when the invitation was extended, I consider it quite an honor. Once things were set in motion I was on fire writing. For a spell. Then I got a case of, "this cannot be real. I am crazy to think I can pull this off." In the shower I was brilliant, the car, amazing. Doing laundry, the thoughts just flowed. Sitting at the computer? Brain dead.

I managed to fire off a first draft to my pastor's wife whose opinion I really value. It wasn't complete, but the gist was there and her comments helped to reset my "go" button. I requested a deadline for the next draft as I have been so bad at setting my own lately. She asked to see it by Wednesday. I had a million things in my brain last night related to the updated draft that I loved. Today they are not landing. I have been praying that the Lord will guide my words and make them His and I know that He will. I am hoping He plans to do this by Wednesday.

Maybe I need to go do a load of laundry and let the creativity flow.


Mamma D said...

Boy, can I relate the procrastination thing. It usually happens to me when I am running on empty. I have been trying to say let Daddy D know that I need some time - alone or with him. Usually that recharges my batteries and I am able to face those tasks that I need to get done.

When I have been stuck on a writing assignment, it has helped to read things that inspire me. Somehow, reading other peoples views on things helps me to find my own "voice". Take care, Chick... things will be ok. It's not like you have a lot going on and you are probably just overwhelmed. Try to find a minute to breathe.


TheTutor said...

Spiral notebooks, mechanical pencils, and MP3 players with microphones are your friends. :O)