Yesterday I dropped K.Z. off at camp. Overnight camp. The kind where you sleep overnight and are not allowed to come home to hug your Mommy. And your Mommy misses you. Even after only 5 hours.
This is K.Z.'s first time going off to a traditional "sleep away" camp. He has camped overnight without us before, but it was one night with family friends and he could have called home to say goodnight should the need arise. That selfish little thing had no need that time.
This camp is a whopping twenty minutes from our house and he is there with his good friend and it is a strong Christian camp ran by the church at which he attends AWANA and he has lots of junk food with him and he really was excited to go, and his Mommy misses him.
Frankly I thought that having my oldest two kids away at the same time would be a bit of a break. C'sa and Iggy get a lot more Momma time and I would be able to take a deep breath. Not so much.
I am not worried about the kids at all. Both of them are in good hands with believers who have the same scruples that we have. I am getting more one on one time with the little ones, but my house is incomplete. Big pieces of this family's puzzle are missing and it is odd.
One of the 8,532,487,003 reasons I chose to homeschool is the fact that I like my kids and I genuinely enjoy spending a lot of time all together (no worries, I love them too, but I really, truly, like them). Having them educated at home affords tons of family time that is so very fleeting. I love the fact that they are having these adventures, which I think are important, but it leaves a strange dynamic in the house. I believe it is referred to as "quiet". It is bizarre.
Off to tend to the two I have left!
4 comments:
I cannot even begin to imagine what it will be like to have an "empty nest" one day....it must be so odd and weird and sad and happy at the same time.
I always enjoy when the kids have a chance to "get away" and enjoy time with others -- I feel very selfish wanting them all to myself sometimes. *wink* But you're so right...there's always the feeling of something missing.
{{{{HUGS}}}} to you while they're away!
I know what you mean. I just gave birth to our 6th blessing 4 weeks ago. I have had several friends take our older kids for the day to give me some relief. While I am enjoying the one-on-one time with my infant, I'm missing the others! I know everyone means well, and my kids are certainly having a blast, but part of me just wants to tell everyone "Stop taking my kids away! I want them at home with me!" :-)
I hear you!!!!
We always say how we wish we could have time to ourselves and when we finally get that time; we spend our time thinking about how we miss our kids! A quiet house is a strange and unsettling thing!
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